I called the clinic and they said it was a three-week wait, ‘But the doctor’ll give you something just to get you through the day.’
I’m scared, I’ve never felt like this before. The only way I can stop from crying it to take deep breaths and sit on the floor.
I woke early this morning coz my appointment was today. She asked me what I’ve been up to and if everything’s okay. I said ‘Frustration passes through me the way that wind shakes trees.’
When the panic set in, it was all I knew. The sadness washed my skin and
shaking grew.
She asked me to go home, unclench my fists, think of everything that’s stressful and start a list.
I thought, ‘Yeah, if I could actually see my life, maybe I could compartmentalise the dark and the light.’
I woke up early that Tuesday as I did then every week and the more times that I did that, the less I felt like a freak. But I got added to fixed list even though I struggle still.
I used to have friends. I used to know why I felt sad, if I ever did, but now I feel that all the time.
A lovely album from start to finish. So good I bought it twice ( first digitally , then on CD ) . Immediately before writing this little blurb I also got the t-shirt. Standout song writing and a beautifully resonant voice. Poormonger
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